We fear the dark because we don't know what's beyond it.
But, life is about turning that fear into curiosity and plunging yourself into the darkness to discover yourself and be freed of all that binds you. We were born to make a lifelong journey inside ourselves.
It takes a certain amount of time for one to be fully happy in a situation like this, but I finally believe that I have attained that shine. I’m happy because the ones I love are happy and, in life, what more could you ask for? I’m finally over jealousy, over sappy love songs, over pushing for the impossible. I was blinded by what I wanted for myself instead of wanting for others. I have moved on for the good of the group and myself.I know that one day I’ll be blessed again, because I am truly blessed now in being surrounded by the ones I love and love me back.
Some days I have to stop and look at the goodness all around me; the privileges I have, the opportunities I didn’t pass up. I left everything and everyone I knew and moved 900 miles away to the middle of Missouri. I can truly say that I’m happier here than anyone back in Texas that said I was stupid for leaving. I’ve met so many amazing and inspiring people, had conversations I never thought I’d have, and am beginning to understand the world around me better than anyone from the suburban wasteland I left behind. I love these new people that I can truthfully call my friends and all the good feelings and experiences they have brought out of me. In the four months that I’ve lived here, I’ve discovered myself. I’ve freed myself.